what is this that i'm feeling?
something's missing.
god i feel so emo. hi five jenn.
i feel ignored. neglected. by my friends.
revelations.
& then you'd say its my fault. maybe.
history was goood.. i think i can manage a 50%. if i don't, i'm gonn chop off my fingers & never do history again because i studied so freaking hard & miss teo is such a good teacher that makes me be interested in the damn subject called history. not only that, but also she made me study the jap occupation. i hate wars, have i mentioned that? that's why, my dear E412ians, i wished for world peace on my birthday. not that i wanna become miss congeniality, k. i really hate wars. no, don't mention the word baghdad or afghan. go away. i couldn't bring myself to open to that chapter 6 on world war ii. the japanese, then, were so cruel & deserve to die. whoo.. anyways, my point is that, i managed to write more than 1 page for section b & c.
chinese paper one - god bless joey hwang. she helped me find a dictionary just MINUTES before my paper started. in the morning, i had thought of going to the bookshop to buy a dictionary or the electronic one. but turns out they don't sell it. how unlucky. so i sucked in my breath & almost submitted to fate - that i'm gonn fail this year. (wait, have i always been failing? eh.)
buuutt.. JOEY HWANG! three cheers & three cheers & three cheers for joey hwang!! :D
so yes. i think i can pass this paper toooo.
someone in my class (i'm not gonn put her name here) lost her dictionary minutes before the paper started too. then, another someone (i'm not gonn put her name here) asked me if i knew where it was. it was like as if she inserted such strong suspiscions on me. like what the hell.
i have my values okay.
i think i'm drifting away from the world.. hmm. i'm too busy, i'm going online less than frequently, even before the exams.
now i'm studying hard hard hard. last minute, though. but it always works. hah. but after i receive my results, i'd wish i had studied a bit longer.. regrets.
i had so much to say. but it all just turns out like this in the end. my thoughts are killing me, once again. go away.
you know what spending quality time is? it is when you're most alert, so you can pay attention, your 102% attention on your loved one.
why do i still keep things to myself. force me to say it, & i will. because i don't wanna hide from you my feelings. i..
you're my only one.
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