I just noticed it's been very long since I've reflected on myself, say things that made me upset, here. Wanna know why? Cause there's people who read this blog, when I don't want them to read what I'm upset about. Because the reason is them.
I'm feeling so pissed up inside. Maybe it's my period. =/ It always makes me feel so angry, so so so vulgatic, so uncouth, so.. painful! Well, I'll just tolerate it all & shut the _ up. Her behaviour - so, so very unreasonable, demanding, demanding for a slap in her face. From EVERYONE. Yesyes. So sickening. I was thinking, maybe she would be nothing if I were to be angry with her. But no, it's too childish. It'll be very immature of me to be a bully. The bully that I used to be, but now am not. Hmm, are people taking advantage of this? I hope not.
I can't say whatever I feel, because people will ALWAYS get upset with this, then they'd ALWAYS be angry. Then they'd push the blame to me. It's always me who feels the hurt, not them. Never them. Because they don't give a _.
Okay, I know this is going nowhere. But I'm mother_ upset now. I wish for an answer & more.
Him - what should I do about him?
Hmm, maybe I shouldn't confess. Yes.
Maybe I should restrain from boys. I hate them. They make me go crazy, I want to kill them.

Hhaa I keeeeeed, I keeeeedddddd..
By the way, I'm very lazy to reply everyone's testimonials in friendster. Even though its just like 5-8 of them. =/

Lissa ran her finger over the rim of her cup, her head down, one curl bouncing slightly with the movement. It had been about a month since Adam had
dumped her, and she'd moved through her weepy stage to just kind of sad all the
time, with occasional moments when I actually heard her laugh out loud, then
stop, as if she'd forgotten she wasn't supposed to be happy.

"Who is she?"

Chloe asked.

"I don't know. She drives a red Mazda."

Jess looked at me,
shaking her head. I said, "Lissa, have you been driving by his house?"

"No," she said, and then looked up at us. We, of course, were all staring back at her,
knowing she was lying. "No! But the other day there was construction on Willow
and then I--"

"Do you want him to think you're weak?" Jess asked her. "Do you
want to give him that satisfaction?"

"How can he already be with somebody else?" Lissa asked her, and Jess just sighed, shaking her head. "I'm not totally okay yet, and he's with someone else? How can that be?"

"Because he's a jerk," I told her.

"Because he's a guy," Chloe added. "And guys don't get attached, guys don't ever give themselves over completely, and guys lie. That's why they should be handled with great trepidation, not trusted, and held at arm's length whenever possible.."

This Lullaby by Sarah Dessen.
Haha. Something I could relate to about {3. Maybe its the same with every guy?
Oh, I guess I'm over {3 already. Hmmm..

Did I mention how I loveeeeeeeee being alone in a room? I get to cry whenever I want to, without silencing myself like last time. Y'know, "the blasting music can drown my sorrows.."

But maybe I'm wrong, still.

THIS POST IS DEEP & MEANINGLESS.

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