yesterday was a fucking shitty day.
LONG POST.
i forgot what happened in school, only after.
okay, so manky & eunice came to my house and we changed into the clothes that we're gonna act in.
then we waited awhile, then headed to my house downstairs the multi-purpose hall. then, eunice & i went to pick the girls from school to the hall and we went through it roughly while waiting for the guys to come. then blahblahblah.. they came.. tried to rehearse. it was damn painful mann. eunice had to bang into me, then i had to shout at her. & cause of our difference in heights, her shoulder hit into my chest then my shoulder hit her cheek. then i had to slap her too. sometimes, i couldnt bring myself to do it then i just walked away and sat down. i dont want to.
but after a few NGs, eunice told me that i can just slap her, like really, really slap. then manky had to enter the scene, and i had to quarrel with her. she kept changing the lines and i had to counter no matter what. then she keep saying till i had nothing to say back cause it was getting very ridiculous. then i tried to make her remember, then we started filming & all.
i think my neighbour saw me holding jervin's hand {which was what i was required to do}
he was like, staring angrily at us, i think. i couldnt see properly. then i had this vomit feeling. plus one of the takes, jervin tried to kiss me on my cheek. fucking hell, i was so mad. but because of the rest, i didnt show it. hes my KOR lah for fuck's sake! he should know where his limits are! ughhhh!
ooh. then i saw andrew. then i said hi to him. but he looked so different. then he was like a bit shocked. then manky came over and read off his name tag "Gabrielite". then i was like, OMG! wrong person! fuck! i was talking to a stranger all the while. no wonder he was like damn blur!
then i wanted to go home & change, since its near, plus i didnt want my mom to see me wearing what i was wearing, plus its kinda revealing. then alex, shawn & jervin wanted to follow me up. then i said no, then we stood outside the lift for like 3 mins, then i went in the lift and wanted to quickly go up, but the door didnt close fast enough. then they came in and we went up then alex went inside, but not jervin & shawn cause carhole hates jervin. iunno why also. then later while i was changing, MY MOTHER CAME HOME. fuckfuckfuck mann. then she was like shouting my name and asking me to get out of the room. then she was like asking me who the two boys outside my house. then she asked carhole if they were his friends. then he said alex is his friend.
WHAT THE FUCK LAH!
then i was SO pissed, i shouted at him: oi! why you never say they're your friends?!
carhole: cause mummy said that they are your friends what! then you expect me to lie and tell her they're my friends ah?
UGHHHHHH!
BASTARD! IDIOT! LOSER! NERD! LONER!
I HATE HIM LAH.
LIE ALSO CANNOT MEH?! FUCKKKKKK. I HAVE A LOSER FOR A BROTHER.
HE CAN JUST GO DIE LAH!
I DONT CARE IF IM LONELY AT HOME.
BETTER OFF WITHOUT THAT PIECE OF SHIT.
anyways, i shouted at my mom & all then asked her to go down & see that we're filming lah.
then i went back down with the guys. by then, the rest have shot the second scene, where manky asks eunice to officially join her gang, & manky gave eunice her ring. {they told me today & acted out for me in class. then i was like, uhhh, okaaay.}
it was kinda cheesy. like, too cheesy.
then manky, alex, shawn, jervin & i slacked while the rest went home. then i decided to send all of them to the bridge that leads to blk 157 that leads to tp inter. then we were walking, sent manky home, walkwalkwalk, stopped, cause dont-know-who wanted to buy drinks. then we stood there for like 5 mins, deciding. -.-
then we all walked to 7/11, & i bought seventeen for D&T. haha. i dont read mags okkk. when i was paying for it, jervin was beside me. then out of the blue, jervin said, "ey! i have that magazine! hahaha. cause the girl so chio. ahahahahhaha!"
then i was like, scrunching up my face. hes so random.
okay. then we all ended up walking to the bus stop behind my house, cause dont-know-who goes home by there, plus they didnt want me to send them home. hmm. anyways, shawn's taxi came, alex's bus came then i went home.
then when my mother came home, she started bombarding me all those questions.
mom: WHAT WERE THEY DOING OUTSIDE?! AND YOU EVEN LEFT THE DOOR OPEN WITH THE KEY STUCK OUT!
me: eh. cause i was gonna change quickly. and is they follow me up one lor!
mom: THEY FOLLOW YOU UP. HUH! OBVIOUSLY THEY WERE UP TO SOMETHING
me: up to something my ASS lah!
mom: ASS?! HOW DARE YOU USE THIS LANGUAGE HUH! -takes bamboo pole -waves it around
me: -does homework
mom: you this vain pot lah! everyday only know how to go out go out, SOMEMORE WITH BOYS. call yourself a woman? i call you a PIG ah!
fucking hell. dsjfjfhfjfsjgbvdjkvjb
she called me a pig. A PIGGGGG.
fuck mann. arent you suppose to be the PIG?
then she was raving on & on madly like a mad pig, saying something along the lines like
"you can be a prostitute when you grow up. i dont care whether you have baby with a man. go be prostitute lah. i dont care one! you can blardy hell get out of the house. dont blardy hell show me this attitude. i got limit one okay! you ah. go out buy buy buy clothes. so revealing still wear. stop attracting attention lah! i dont want you to mix around with boys now. you are not at the right age. & its not that i want you to become a lesbian."
SEE. LOOK. fuck her mann. i have bright future okay! b-
okay, i dont wanna get sued.
anyways, i shouted at her then she took a cane and caned me. wanna see? i took some pictures. cause i thought they could be proof of child abuse. okay, maybe you might not wanne see 'em. but it was bleeding. fuck. this was the first time mann. i dont love her anymore. i thought she wouldnt be like my father. but i was wrong. she wont protect me forever. she sucks. i hate her.
after she was done, and when my father came home, she treat me like nothing had happened. fuck. i think shes two-sided. gahhh
today.
i was looking forward to CME. haha.
mazlind was pissed. she SCREAMED okay. so annoying. cause aud & pris never do corrections after she flashed it on the OHP and charme, petra & manky never pass up hmk 2. she called the 3 of 'em 3 or more times, but no one came up. then she shouted & scolded us. then i was doing my corrections while she was scolding. eunice too! heheheh.
anyways, when manky went up to her & asked why she never go up to her when she called for the 3 of them, manky said "cause you asked us to go up with the maths papers what"
hahahahahah! omfg! dayuuuuum.
then after recess, t'was sci, not really fun like other times.
then, CME! my group performed first. joey & kim are the boy & the girl, sharon's the friend of the girl, and im the narrotor/mother. [:
went out well. good job girls! :D
i think we did better than the other groups. their points wasnt exactly that straightforward, i couldnt understand.
after the 3 groups with the same topic acted out, mrs tan was telling us about her friends. how they got pregnant.
one was a prefect in her secondary school, at the age of 16, she went out to clubs & drank & had pre-marital sex with a bartender. then she decided to keep the baby, cause initially, she wanted everything to work out good. then they got married & all. then yah, didnt work out in the end & they divorced.
there's more to the story, but i doubt yawl would wanna read it.
anyways, she told us many many stories. then she said something when it was nearing the end of the lesson, " girls. why dont you just tell your parents that you want to go out with guys, bring them over and introduce them to your parents? say, like, daddy mummy, im going out with derik, david lah.." and i froze. oh no she didnt! what the fuck! she reminded me of derik! ughhhh. i already forgotten about him alr lah. for like, what? 2 months? really okay.
anyways, this wave of emotion overcame me and i felt like crying. grrrrrarh.
then the bell rang and it was chinese. BUT.
WANNE ISNT HEREEEEE!
omfg! like finally, freedom! we wont be seeing her tmr either. whoo.
okkk, then we were settling the class shirt. while eunice & i were listening to our mp3, smsing.
ooh. then ms tiru looked for me again and asked me to quickly join a cca. then manky & i decided on arts alive! [: i feel so complete.
but im thinking of joining sailing. butbutbut. must pay leh! plus, i may kena skin cancer. ):
is there indoor sailing? [:
after school.
ambra, nat, aud, eunice & i were going to manky's house.
i was going there to swim. and the rest, i dont knowwwww.
manky wanted to buy the sort-of-bubble tea so i brought her there. then on the way, i saw derik! omggggggggg. why so. so. unlucky slash lucky?
he smiled, and waved. hahaha. first time. all the other times, i had to acknowledge him then he'll respond.
feel my joy bitches!
anyways, we headed to 7/11 to buy lunch cause manky's not gonna cook lunch for us. then we were walking.. then suddenly, manky shouted, "EH!!! YUANMAY!!! DERIK!!!" then i saw him sitting at the pavillion. must be waiting for dawn. haha. then i slacked outside with manky & aud, deciding whether to go over & talk to him. then i went up to him and talked to him. i think i talked the most. that idiot refused to answer me back.
him:-removes his earphones on the right ear, where i was sitting
me: what you doing here?
him: -smiles
silence.
me: oi! what you doing here?!
him: huh? i cannot hear you.
me: -.- what you doing here?
him: oh. erh.. waiting for dawn.
me: ooooooh.
stupid. then i told him about yesterday, the caning & all. he just bent down, turned, look at me, and smile or he said "okay". he did that throughout the whole one sided conversation.
anyways, we went to manky's house, then cam-whored while manky gets ready. then i went home to get my swimming costume, and we met up @ the lobby & went to the pool! [[[:
i felt kinda left out.
eunice was talking to shawn on the phone
& manky was talking to lee zheng on the phone
ahh. i have new nickname.
in school, manky had nothing to sms to lee zheng, then she asked me what to say to him. then i said, "sms this to him: what colour underwear are you wearing?" hence, i've been nicknamed "the horny friend" cause i didnt want him to know me.
then manky & i swam, one by one the girls left. leaving me & manky. then we chatted.. t'was super fun.
then suddenly i received this sms, from someone. then the person was like asking my name two times. then i asked his name three times, then he said he was andrew. then we chatted; he took 2 hours to find out my number! hahaha! lawl!
anyways, it was him. the gabrielite is his school name i think.
stupid lah. i thought it was the nametag. it really was like a sewn on name tag!
ooh. its 1110pm. im tired.
i think mrs helen tan lets me see things clearly. i was thinking that im ready to be in a relationship today, during recess. but what she said totally changed my thinking.
i dont want & need a boyfriend now.
i wanna study.
become air-stewardess for 3 years with F.U.N.
work as an accountant.
or musician.
i dont wanna be tied down to a guy.
plus, i wouldnt be able to find one now if i want.
bluhhh.
i love talking to my manky :D
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